Tuesday, August 17, 2010
For the past few months now I've watched quite a few people I love and care about do foolish things with money.
I talk about my dismay with my immediate family but otherwise TRY very hard to keep my comments and opinions to myself.
This is where the talent of 'just smile and nod' comes in handy.
I get it, I really do:
I KNOW this isn't any of my business.
I KNOW this is my problem.
I KNOW that I have an issue with money that isn't going to go away anytime soon.
It's simply my lament and for the time being, it would seem I just can't help it.
I get angrier and angrier...but I say very little to nothing to the ones in question (and there are multiple) and I admit that I'm struggling to find meaning and understanding behind it all.
Perhaps I'm not meant to.
*Smile and nod, Jo. Smile and nod.*
I'm always afraid the look of utter disapproval and disappointment on my face will betray my thoughts:
"Did you really just buy that when you have other more important priorities?"
"Wasn't it just this side of two weeks ago when you were worried about how this-n-that was going to get paid?
Did shopping in excess for things you don't really need change all that?"
All leading to the following questions for myself:
Have I mis-understood this whole time?
Have I got it wrong?
Is this the secret of life and happiness?
Where was I -- did I miss the cue?
What am I not seeing here?
And finally, when, if at all, is it my business to say anything?
Never. It's simply not my place and I know I have to let it go.
I don't know much, but I do know what broke is. Many people do, not just me.
We know what it is to struggle to buy a package of hot dogs.
We know the difference between needing something and wanting something.
That is the lesson I took away from last year.
I'm now 44 years old and I had to learn that the hard way. I save up for the things I want.
I'd like to sit down and teach them these lessons but I know you can't teach these things.
You either know it and already live it, or you have to learn the same way I did -- and hope to God they don't wind up taking the same course.
It's all about balance -- and it took me decades to find mine. Learn from me.
If not, then just please don't show me all your unnecessary 'loot' one week and then tell me you're broke and/or that you can't pay a bill the next.
I can only keep my big mouth shut and my thoughts to myself for so long -- and your lament at that moment may very well be the one that pushes mine over the edge.
Let's not tempt it, shall we?
Peace, serenity & balance.
*EDIT: Just posted a new recipe on my 'Rabbit Food' blog --feel free to grab my 'Rabbit Food' blog button located on my side bar. :)