Tuesday, March 23, 2010
IT'S FINALLY OVER
Three months and counting since our bankruptcy hearing in January, it is now official -- upon receiving our 'Discharge Of Debtor' notice today -- that Ed and I are officially bankrupt.
In a sense I feel a great relief. I am not shocked per se` by this outcome as this is indeed what we were striving, struggling and fighting for all this time; to get relief from our debt after losing our home and owing thousands upon thousands to the financial company that loaned us the second on the house.
The house where we lived for 16 years and where we raised our children.
We did not intend this to be how our lives turned out. While there were certainly things we could have and should have done better, it was not done out of maliciousness, credit card debt (of which we have none) nor ill intentions.
Still, to say that justice was served or perhaps that I feel good about this outcome is incorrect.
We will not be toasting it's success nor celebrating our 'good fortune'. This is not something to be boastful about: this simply calls for nothing less than humility and gratefulness.
Gratefulness that we survived this and finally found a good attorney who stood by our side and fought for us.
There are still lessons to be learned that await me -- it has to first wade through all the sludge of my grief, despair and shock before revealing itself.
Thank you for being by my side during my on-going journey of hope.
"I think all we can aspire to in this situation is a little bit of grace."